Why do I write?
Because I love it! And I can draw stuff like this sometimes! 🙂
As I work through some of my projects, I found myself thinking way too much.
The new information weighs heavy. The action steps require me to do <gasp> research and stuff beyond the comfort zone.
It’s doggone awful. I can feel my brain saying, “That’s enough! I can’t go further right now.”
But it’s bullcrap. I can always do more. A little more.
My problems are trying to write great ideas. The thing is, what is a great idea? Or a good idea? Or even a bad idea? Why let an idea die because it doesn’t fit my description of a good idea?
The fight is constantly waged day after day after day. I hate it.
The fight will always be there when I do the work. The unseen opponent is ready and willing to wrestle me like God wrestling Jacob. I’m always going to be pounded, twisted, and bent when I sit down and draw, write, and plan.
The pain never goes away. I must enjoy the process of misery. I must make a game of it. But I can’t sugarcoat it unless I like a bottom part of the opponent’s palm smacked into my nose.
The start sucks. But as I keep going beyond, I can cope. I can thrive. I can have a little fun.
Yes, each day can be seen as a new round of swinging, missing, and hitting. The only way to win is get back up when you get a smack down. The only way to win is hit back with a few jabs and power punch at the end.
Always take that extra step further. Demand the change. Be more. And don’t forget, some tasks require less thinking. 🙂
All the good and bad, they too shall pass.
Emotions are important all through the day and the evening. When it’s time for bed, release them all or let them pass like clouds blown in the sky.
Creativity is fluid when one is relaxed and tense. We can’t say what is good or bad. Everything has its use and purpose if we look for it.
Today went well as it could. Despite my reservations with the certain parts of the work, it was because I was not familiar with them. I know I must always push the boundaries. I know the discomfort will bring me to another level. Familiarity and comfort is not the way to go.
We must delve into the unknown. We must seek what is new. We must venture forth. Life isn’t worth living if you aren’t going for it. 🙂
Well, I’m feeling not so good.
The weather got a bit cooler. I welcomed it with open arms. But when I got into the institute, my health turned to something not so good.
I also felt lost and directionless. I asked myself, “Why am I doing what I’m doing? Why am I not going as I planned? Was it because it wasn’t fun? Was it because it wasn’t what I wanted? Why am I chasing so many damn things?”
A lot of negativity. At the same time, I was utterly focused on teaching and mentoring. They were the redeeming factors to my lost day.
I felt lost because I saw Da Missus heading in a direction I didn’t want her to go. That direction wasn’t necessarily bad, but it would have been better if it was a free choice.
I felt lost because I wanted to do so much in the day but never seem to finish them all. It was like grabbing sand in my hands. It was like chasing the back fender. I get so easily with simple pleasures.
I thought I got it. I wanted specific life goals that are related to my passions and dreams. I put them on hold. I must be retarded.
Now, now. The clouds are coming. They have to. My answer is to let them be and pass.
I don’t have to struggle. I have to go. This too shall pass.
It’s time to simplify, minimize. Too much on my plate. Let’s make the tasks manageable and doable. Let get some wins under the belt. Let’s start again the next day. 🙂
Right now, I’m panicking.
I’m scared because of the broken patterns. With trains, when the track has a warped rail or one of the nails isn’t so secure, the chance of derailing increases.
Train wrecks are hard to recover.
I got knocked down. I’m struggling to get up. I doubt. Still I insist on getting through.
I mean, I’ve messed up plenty. I preach consistency but not follow through on my own advice. I despised myself for this. I imagine those that seen how things are in Cyper are simply ‘meh’.
The struggle is personal. We all struggle with something. We have issues.
We must continue and pursue. Good or bad or ugly.
If we have a goal we want done, decide it is done and get it done.
Release the mechanisms and rules and conditions. Life is too short to get caught up with personal policies and politics.
With that in mind, I move forward. I’ll mess up again in the future. But I’ll deal with today only. 🙂
Mindset determines outcomes.
If we believe we are talented or not, that’s that. We are born to rock? We will get a guitar in our hands and play until they bleed. We are born to crunch numbers? Then crunching we will go, handling files ranging from individuals to Fortune 500 companies.
If we believe we were made to do much, much more, that’s right. We will keep going until we are much, much more.
According to your faith, you shall be. Whether you think you can or can’t, you’re right.
That’s mindset. And who determines it? You.
But, what about our parents? Our brothers and sisters? Cousins? Friends? Where I’m living? Don’t they determine mindset?
Yes, if you let it.
Excuses come from letting things on the outside determine your thoughts and emotions.
The fact is, you can control your decisions. You can chose how you want to feel. You can believe the stars are yours for the taking.
Please take care your mind, heart, and body. It is your vehicle and it will take you where you want to go.
Believe what you want to believe. May your beliefs bring happiness and eagerness to do meaningful work. May your world be something you want to be part of. Expand and grow as you grow older.
Spend nurturing and cultivating your mindset. Sooner or later, the body and mind will follow. 🙂
Yes, be happy. Why? Because you can.
I believe we live only one life. We got one shot here on this blue little planet. We got to make most of it.
Move forward. Be there. Ask questions. Be curious.
If you decided to do the work, then act on it. Write. Draw. Dig a hole. Make a dent in the universe.
Surround yourself with friends that can encourage you on your journey and likewise. Fill your mind with that you want and feel joy with that.
Go through these thoughts again and again. Pray with these thoughts. Meditate on these thoughts. Change your mind completely by saying the desires of your heart.
Want it? Get it. But in all of the things you do with your life, be happy. Be full of cheer. Honestly, I want you to be happy for as long as you live. 🙂
We only have so much time.
If you can, move fast as you can.
Be swift, like the wind.
Let desperation and stress fly off as you go about doing as much as you can.
And when the time’s up, let go.
And smile. 🙂