Reflections on Synchronicity
I am a Prisoner
The pain is gone from the back of my neck, but I know something is wrong. I know there’s freedom for me to gain and I am now in some sort of prison.
The trap I’m in is where I am. I try to make time to find the way to get out, only to be easily distracted by small forms or pleasure or pain.
I realize that when I go free, no one will understand my freedom. I could explain time and time again and it would be ignored or misinterpreted by others. Some may even be angry for my ridiculous talk.
I am Full of Myself 1
I feel my opinions count and that it has value. I want to share it with others.
I am Full of Myself 2
I also believe the opinions of others whether big or small, white or coloured, rich or poor has merit to my eyes and ears. If they are talking to me, they deserve my full attention.
I am Fearful
I feel fear of creating something that could be ridiculed, laughed at or worse ignored. Because I don’t know the results, they scare me.
I am fearful of indifference. I’m afraid my creativity may mean nothing to anyone.
I am Angry
I know that people may look the other way, and not care. It is best for me to move on, but I have an anger that burns in me.
I Regret
Perhaps I didn’t make the best decisions and live the life to the fullest. With that said, I still have life to live and make each decision count. It could be that one small decision that could change the course of my life to change forever. Who am I to judge whether this choice or another one is important? It is good to gauge, but it’s only my opinion.
What was That All About?!
Today’s entry was a reflection of Mike’s Entry which I thought was well written with good references. Please go check it out!
Regarding this statement: “I am Fearful. I feel fear of creating something that could be ridiculed, laughed at or worse ignored. Because I don’t know the results, they scare me. I am fearful of indifference. I’m afraid my creativity may mean nothing to anyone.”
I’ll let you in on a little secret (that you already know): Your art doesn’t have to matter to anyone else. It only has to matter to you.
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macklc Reply:
August 26th, 2010 at 8:12 pm
Good point. How about when whatever you draw you think it’s totally crap? Does that mean you should toss them in the trash and never let them see the light of day?
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M Kitchen Reply:
August 26th, 2010 at 8:22 pm
What I did was print SPY GUY: Bootleg with a disclaimer.
Dave Sim said “The cliche (which isn’t a cliche, it’s the truth) is that you have two thousand bad pages in you and until you draw them, you won’t start producing good pages.”
That being the case, I think we’d all better start producing those two thousand bad pages. In my opinion, the ones you toss in the trash don’t count.
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macklc Reply:
August 27th, 2010 at 4:56 pm
Two thousand bad pages.
If you draw one bad page a day, it would take 5 years and 175 days before you’ll reach your first good page. From one point of view, that’s a pretty tough pill to swallow and would make any normal person cringe and think of other endeavors.
On the other hand, you could see this as a fun process of getting somewhere; you can make the journey enjoyable by doing the things you like and draw themes that would inspire you. As you said, as long as your art matters to you, you’ll be fine.
I want to add that a deadline should be made, so you won’t fall into the trap of trying to perfect whatever you’re trying to do. I remember a Pixar artist saying he could work on an piece of artwork forever. A piece art is never finished, but since the movie has to be released, it’s worked up to a certain point and polish and then he moves on.