Life is tough.

I feel it now. I am feeling under the weather. I have a watery nose.

If I knew how to earn money for as long as I live, I’m sure it wouldn’t be so hard.

Age is a factor. I can only do so much with the work I am doing now. I need to find different streams of income to take care of the ones I care for.

I am having difficulty trying to grasp the words I want to write down.

This struggle will always be there. And I feel I will go down one of these days like how I fell several times before.

Writing for the sake of writing?

I want my words to mean more, but I am caught between getting the words down and making as much meaning as possible.

A terrible situation for me to be in. Yet, I am compelled to keep going. It is embarrassing for me to do this.

Yes, I am having a hard time writing. This is the hardest day yet, five days in.

The Little Things Nurses Say

Going to the doctor to have my illness checked and possibly cured. I tried reading a few pages of an eBook and couldn’t hold focus for more than a few minutes. Because I was in quite a bit of pain, I asked for an injection. The doctor let me have that. I remember the nurse saying, “Oh, you are afraid of shots!” I had nothing to say since people will think what they want to think.

And life goes on.

When I got back home, I got to bed, trying to meditate. Yeah, that went well.

Work and the Flu

The flu is getting around. Several people got infected and had to stay at home. The flu in Korea is not something to be lightly taken. Exertion and a fever could cause terrible pain and unconsciousness.

Koreans just grinned and bore whatever illness on them. The flu is one that demands a person to rest for a week. Here’s hoping I don’t get it.

Being sick sucks. Time passes quickly. I move like I am in slow motion.

Compromising

I really am running out of time. I think I may not be able to reach my goal today. Today, I was full of excuses and apologies. It is just awful and stupid. I don’t like using my health as a crutch but I did.

What can I do? I am thinking too much. I am thinking way too much. The roller coaster of today. I somehow did the work. I somehow demanded myself to do something at home and realized it will not be enough. Time is against me. I am under pressure but not enough to move faster. This is unacceptable.

10 Ideas to Feel Better Soon

1. Get plenty of sleep (at least 8 hours)
2. Drink plenty of fluids (water)
3. Eat man eat
4. Take your medicine
5. Meditate
6. Sleep warmly
7. Rest often
8. Breathe
9. Laugh a bit
10. Read a good book

A Tribute to Blair

A lot of things happened since yesterday. A good friend passed away.

Blair Kitchen was a brilliant, talented person. He impacted many with his work in animation. A really good guy and left way too soon. My condolences and prayers to his family. 🙁