I guess some sort of fear will always be around each day I live.
Gotta give it to God when I remember.
I realize that I can’t control the things outside.
But I can make the choices I want within.
It took some time for me to write something.
That was because I was busy?
Every post required me to plunge in, not knowing how things will turn out.
The pain brought me to write today.
I got a slight headache, from a late night meeting.
I paid for it with Da Missus stating her case of the mistakes I made.
I guess I deserved it.
At times, I got this stress that wouldn’t go away due to the blunders I made.
Always, with much reflection made, I can feel I was a fool.
I feel that I don’t deserve the happiness some other people have.
Though when I teach a class I go out to educate, to perform.
When that’s done, I just want to crawl under the rock I came from.
I wouldn’t want to wish my situation, my environment to anyone.
I would like you to be happy and well.
Cheer up my friend, I’m going to be fine.
Hopefully I’ll write again the next day.